metamorphosis - inevitable?

my characters in granado espada are dying. they died. okay, i'll take some time to update this little bloggie of mine ;p

i wonder why. i took my phone, car keys and wallet and i went to church for a youth fellowship meeting. kinda puzzled, didn't want to go at all but somehow i still end up being there in that familiar place. i have been attending the same old church since i was about 5 or 6, maybe 7, can't really recall the actual age.

i noticed something today - changes. people changed, teaching methods changed, teacher changed. everything changed. the faces i saw were still the same old old people i know except that they have grown a lot, addition of a few new faces to the family too. they know me, but they sorta like total strangers to me. i'm getting old and isolated.

atmosphere changed too. not much of changes though. i was once a participant in all conversation but now, i guess i'm more like an observer than a player. they have their own world. the world that i dwell in is no longer there. ah, enough about the changes. let's talk about what i've been taught today! go on a mission and preach the gospel. i mean, how to share the word where my own life is a total messed-up?

church activities were once my favourite in the past. i used to be Snow White, but i drifted.
if you don't create change, change will create you. is change inevitable, unavoidable?